Increasing number of HIV cases were worried. The new case was found increasing 39% in sixteen years. Indonesia had 150.296 cases. ARV program and screening were used to hold the cases. On the other hand, this program had difficulties to improve because of the stigma. Most of them did not want to share their diagnosis. Because of that, self-disclosure of HIV person was an interesting thing to catch up. This aim of the research was to know the meaning of self-disclosure for mother who had seropositive HIV in Victory Plus Yogyakarta Foundation. The method was qualitative study with phenomenology design using IPA analysis. It was used in depth interview. Purposive sampling was used with inclusion criteria were mothers who were 26 to 45 years old and they had children. The result had 2 themes, there were (1) HIV was death shadow;(2) trying disappear from the world. Firstly, the person with HIV felt loneliness and darkness in their live. They also got isolation from society. Because of that, knowing what they felt and empathy for other were the only way to help them from their darkness live.